well a new day dawning

well a new day dawning

I spent a few hours debating the nature of things

Tinnitus time when you cannot sleep means you can think

I spent a LIFETIME working the worst shifts

to keep myself employable

and if you have time off midweek when others work

what do you do

as well as that, you can think

nobody thinks nowadays then just react

ping to pong

well i actually thought

maybe I should have drunk more etc

but  the die was cast and I am where I am

but I suppose it was good training to be a writer

I didn't plan it it just emerged

I've also discovered my writing method

is in the top 1% 

doesn't mean its any good

but I have 20 years of listening

BEFORE I started to write

Listening, 100s of booke even 1000,

plus 5 films. a. week for decades

SO

I'm full to the brim

so as I talk to you I'm  just pouring

not thinking, just a automatic for the people

obvious joke slipped in

I think I'm good

you may think otherwise

and I'm qualified since 29288

Leap Years Day 1988

though you may think certified

so you get the picture

a library is being poured onto the page in front of me

If after all these years i were rubbish

then throw me in the canal

i did once nearly fall backwards into the canal

we were in a bar by the canal

I laughed so much and my chair rocked backwards

Barry Brand grabbed my chair and saved me from a soaking

HELLO BARRY

yes its't me

I'm still useless

but now it's 3,000,000 words later

Barry is was and always will be a very great soul

and no he didn't pay me to say that

and Julie DANGLY is wonderful too

others know who they are

all those who touched my life

will agree I've been touched up

or shall we say, I'm in need of a touch up

Gill with a G will  agree

as I lead you up the garden path

27 years ago I left them all behind

but I still have the watercolour of the angel

a leaving present from the Company of Friends

StatsMR

NOW where was I

I'm sat. in front of the screen with my Chinese fake Russian hat on

because in my weak state the tinnitus and cold is getting to me

back in 1999 when I left my computer room job

I did not have this collection of diseases

So, anyway I was discussing in the night the nature of words

and the power and love of stories

In the vain hope that my Arabic Desert Rose collection

of 800,000 words might help me Manga Michael Casey in Arabic

or perform a theatre of words in the Arabic tradition with me

as a storyteller

Are you enjoying this so far, I'm still just pouring

and yes you can imagine how tiresome I can find

the inarticulate wannabe reporters on tv

the good the bad and the should never be allowed on tv

watch the old Drop the Dead Donkey stuff

and backward announcing or even forward announcing

so you get it repeated 3 times

is such a crock of pooh

HERE

michael will discuss pooh, yes pooh is pooh, thank you michael for discussing pooh

that was michael our reporter discussing pooh

SEE

it stinks

ask more questions, don't spend a minute saying we only have a minute

use the time wisely

words matter as does context

now I need to slap on the arthritis pain killer now

which stinks and makes me feel sick

put if I don't use it I'll scream in pain

and yes I do scream in pain on occasion

or even in bed

its not kinky sex

it is actual pain from my  joints etc

and no Its a pain in the arse

and I've dropped a really smelly one

cos I eat so much fruit to try and keep 

the dialysis away

where could they shove the tube

you have to have a point of entry

with left shoulder arthritis

a hernia as big as my fist in middle of my chest

that's why I wear baggy tops

or I look like a malformed woman

So I can only really sleep when it finally

and begrudgingly comes

I can only sleep on my right side

so if i get the plumbing for dialysis

where would they put it

I'm not Donald Trump with fist injections

and the next bit, is quality of life

better than quantity

11 years since my quadruple heart bypass

and you can guess the rest

if the improvement with dialysis is not

much different to my current rubic cube life

what is the point

it use to be 3 score and 10

so who am I to argue with that

Philosophy for you

and all before 10am on a sunday

and yes I'd love to have 4 more sons

with an oriental beauty

but somehow no matter how hard

I pray, what what are the chances of that

Its like a boy from the inner city

writing 3,000,000 words

having readers in 172 countries

it doesn't happen

But it did to me

 

1987 where I started to write